Now I Still Don’t Know How, But I Know I Can Do It
I don’t know what I’m going to do to get out of this hole I’m in. Life sometimes fills our paths with fog and this even makes me think and feel that the world might end tomorrow. However, I know that this feeling is the result of a blindness caused by all these emotions and negative thoughts that come to me. Inside, I know for a fact that I’m going to get out of all of this. Because I’ve felt like that at other times, because I’ve managed to go out other times.
There are many situations that now, from a distance, make me think that I have surpassed myself enough to be able to deal with it, considering the danger they really entailed. In those moments, the biggest drama that existed was what I recreated in my mind. However, there are still many beliefs and views that I need to analyze and in which I somehow need to find peace.
I’m going to make it, provided I take a risk, provided I face my fears and do it by pushing aside the idea that they’re a reason to give up.
The endings are always new beginnings
The endings are frightening. The sadness that appears when our series or our favorite book ends, the fear that invades us at the possibility of ending a relationship and destroying the idea of that love for life, give us a feeling that we try to avoid at all costs.
However, this also prevents us from making decisions that will benefit us. For example, it’s not negative to end a relationship to which we’re actually only joined by memories; a relationship that, even at present, may be doing us a lot of harm. Despite this, we believe otherwise and maintain our position, supported by a false sense of loyalty to the other, while betraying ourselves.
Sometimes, finishing or leaving something behind is not our decision. Sometimes it’s the circumstances that force us to close a cycle and they still do that without giving us the option of postponing that moment. This represents a heavy blow for us, as we are not prepared and it is not something we really want either.
Everything that is enduring, eternal and guaranteed is considered good, everything that is contrary we consider negative. This has been taught to us since we were little, which caused this tendency that we have to get attached to different objects, situations and people. That’s why it ‘s so hard to let go, let go and make decisions that imply an end point.
I will be able to close this door that will open up new and better possibilities for me, I will be able to observe failures as personal successes.
The endings close a cycle, it’s true. Stages that come to an end and have no turning back. It will not be possible to rewind the tape, there is no possibility that the past will be present again. However, we are not aware that every ending also implies a beginning : our fear blinds this reality. If something ends, this is an excellent opportunity to think about taking new paths with the strength that this experience has given us.
When life gets tough, we can fall down but never give in
We reject those beliefs that claim that every end is the materialization of failure. This brings us nothing but frustration and great anguish that paralyzes us and prevents us from moving forward, it hurts our self-esteem and we end up thinking that there is a kind of black magic strong enough to finish any project that is worthwhile.
We have a greater stamina than we believe we have, a great capacity to pick up momentum from the depths of our being. There are many moments lived in the past when we considered that everything was over for us, but when we least expected new opportunities appeared.
It hurts to end a situation in which we were happy, which offered us so many good moments. We “get used to” the security that routines provide us. That which does not leave everyday life, which makes us feel comfortable and with the certainty that everything will be fine.
We are very used to our comfort zone: cozy, peaceful, loving. We feel very comfortable in it, but there also comes a time when spending too much time in it represents stagnation. Furthermore, no matter how secure we wish to be, adversity, problems and difficulties will always be waiting to put us to the test.
So, after all that, I’m sure I’ll be able to see the most unpleasant circumstances as an opportunity rather than a misfortune. Because after dodging various situations in which I had to make decisions, sooner or later, I will end up facing a dead end in which, yes or yes, I will put my determination to the test.
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